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my wife and my kids in my car
"come i say!
what a glow on the crotch
crouched behind
a sheathe gross shield
of grandiose parties,
half-hard and cocksure
non-conformities
of careers and success
in the form of fabulous...
and a bunch of other really cool
things that we forget about ourselves
(((i think i'm gonna make it BIG)))
fast cars engined
us ingenue types
thru one of our garages
in one of our houses
where one of my families
cooks anxiously for me!
scratching my feet
rubbinb my back
i haven't the time
to remeber the rascals' names!
but i love them all
and i piss when i laugh
at your miscarriaged lives
and the wax in your ears
keeps your hearing aid[s] blind
remeber in school where we first made love
it was halloween and the neighborhood kids saw
us as three different people!
before!
during!
and after!
we slipped head first into the mirage
this marriage holding no water
once the springs came filtering in
sleepwalks the thirstless artist,
the struggling thinkers
of something i think
bottled and sold
interpreting everything that
you'll never understand
little lady, little man...
we're difficult to explain
you've only enunciated the stability
in screwing up
by witnessing
what's their names
tongueless admittance to
all give in, drastically in
to the desperate measures
of the modern flow
where no one
with a decent libido
is getting turned on
in even the sluttiest way
won't anyone ring the necks and bells
cough, ahem, ahem...
"IS THIS REALLY EVERYTHING BABY?"
then jekyling cracked
i antonym in
from the shrubs
and palms
of Eden, Californ-i-a
on your deathbeds in decades
as i am here and now,
if damned to some afterlife
i hope to be haunting you scoundrels
during the epiphany
that is your great unraveling
cackling deep into your absolute ears
when you dawn apon
the fact that
there weren't ever
any missing puzzle pieces
its just that the puzzle
really
fucking
sucks"
-Wesley Eisold
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[21 Feb 2007|04:52pm] |
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am i really a shithole of a person? i can never keep any bond between a person for any extended period of time. all i hear is "oh nick hes such a nice person". im not a nice person, im a really fucking lonely person. all ive wanted my whole life is that one person i can trust, ive never had a best friend, ive never had anybody ive trusted. i just want someone thats allways going to be there for me no matter what. im not looking for any sympathy and i dont knwo what im trying to say but all i know is im not finding what im looking for and its taking a toll on me.
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[21 Feb 2007|12:49am] |
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i get depressed and embaress myself
i am just going to stay at my house for a while
i need to stop seeing everyone
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[17 Feb 2007|10:37pm] |
i wish music didnt take up time
becasue i find myself wanting to listen to all these albums in full but theres not enough time in the day.
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[13 Feb 2007|07:48pm] |
TAKE PILLS
so my first venture into the 35mm camera world for my photo class. none of my pictures really came out that great, or had to really do with the project. i just basically used this to get used to the camera.
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[14 Nov 2006|09:01pm] |
so going through these old entries
i'm basically nothing like i was last year
i could give a fuck about anything these days
i love it
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[06 Oct 2006|02:34am] |
"unfortunatly
theres not much hope
or chance for me, i
m lacking substance.
enter jealousy
i wish i was you
wish i was you"
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[17 Jul 2006|10:22pm] |
animal collective is the greatest band ever :D
and I dont have to work now untill like august
so after 12 on most days I'm free, so hang with meee :D
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[28 May 2006|08:05pm] |
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I think I'm going back into one of those phases where I dont like people in general again.
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[26 May 2006|11:43pm] |
I'm trying to make the perfect mix CD to pass out to friends that will get them into my type of music, heres what I got so far:
1. Camera Obscura: Something About A Nightmare: Curtain 1
2. Get Hustle: A Dead Song
3. Roses For Bohdan: The Amazing Bird That Shit In The Bag
4. Breather Resist: Mirrorfucker
5. Rapider Than Horsepower: Dude Poverty
6. INTERLUDE (by the mae shi)
7. Hot Girls Cool Guys: Queen Kong
8. Crystal Castles: Chess Mess
9. La Quiete: Musica Per Un Giardino Segreto #1
10. Black Flag: Wasted
11. INTERLUDE (by VMW)
12. The Plot To Blow Up The Eiffel Tower: INRI
13. The Chinese Stars: The Drowning
14. The Faint: In Concert
15. Daughters: Fiery
I still got some room, any ideas?
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[18 May 2006|09:16pm] |
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the song in my current music section up there can pretty much explain my life right now
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[17 May 2006|09:13pm] |
WHUT IT DEW
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours
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